Two months ago I started getting notices. Letting me know I needed to change the expiration date on my credit card, or I would not be able to renew and keep my blog site. I let the first two go and was just going to let it drop. Then I received another one and decided OK, I would keep it for now, just because I didn’t want to lose all the information I did have on here. Then I started to think about writing again.
It’s been so long since I have blogged. I don’t know if I remember how. Is it like riding a bike? Do you just jump back on and start peddling? Will I be rusty? Will I fall off? Will I get back up and try again? Why did I ever start a blog in the first place? I wanted to write. I wanted to believe God had given me some great talent for words. I wanted praise and applause from others around me. Don’t we all want that? To feel like there is some great purpose in why we are here. To feel like we matter?
Why did I stop blogging? I got busy, I got sidetracked, and I lost interest. I didn’t have the great explosion of numbers and following I was hoping for. If only a few family and friends were reading was it really worth it? If they were only reading because they were my family and friends was it really worth their time? Or let’s be really honest if that’s all it was, was it worth my time?
Why am I back? Because that isn’t as important to me now. The numbers don’t matter (well not as much, I will always watch them lol). If only a few people read that is OK. Hopefully, my words on each blog will encourage at least one person. Even if no one reads it but me, I am still writing. Because that’s what I love to do. Put words on paper and let them form thoughts and ideas.
So I am back – no expectations, no demands on myself. No set agenda for a certain number a week. No demands for perfection. Sorry, Brett and Chris, the grammar mistakes are who I am. MIsspelled words, run-on sentences, and all. This is who I am. Me just sharing the simple thoughts God puts on my heart. Thoughts of a wife, a mom, a Mimi. A woman who works and comes home tired at the end of the day. A woman who at 60 is still trying to figure it all out. A woman who knows more now than she ever did yet feels like she knows nothing.
So, I hope you follow me. I hope my words in some way encourage you. I hope they encourage your walk with God and I hope they make you laugh! First post coming soon.